the only reason why im blogging at such wee hours is because i am so effing bored. to the extent that im actually playing neopets. i remember during my primary school days, i skipped meals just to play neopets and my dad will usually start yelling at me to have my dinner! talking bout my dad, i miss him. i hardly even see him or talk to him and thats cos my parents are divorced. all you crazy fools.

i feel so bad whenever i think of the times when im so young and i throw my tantrums on him. i feel kinda sad when i think bout it. i was (or rather, i am) a spoilt brat! i will sulk whenever i cant get the things that i want (im not so bad now thou im stil like that sometimes!). whats worse, im always buying nonsense and things that practically so useless. i waste money on letterpads, notebooks, slippers of the same design but different colour, toys, stufftoys, colourpens and more more more! my dad has never say No to me in terms of satisfying my material needs. including things that i dont even need it and im obviously wasting his money. i even got him to get me a palmtop and I DONT EVEN FUCKING HELL NEED ONE.

i hate myself for being such a spoilt brat.
i hate myself for throwing my temper at my dad.
i hate myself for taking my dad for granted.

im feeling this whole rush of emo-ness after typing all these out. i dont even know i'll be typing all these shit out. gosh, i feeel like an idiot but its okay. thanks for reading! i think i'll sleep soon!